Everything is so up in the air.  It doesn’t matter what you wake up to, what you go to bed with is always a last minute decision.  Relativity, comfort zones and the inner child’s core belief that there is no truth, there is only supposition.  Life is made of twists and turns, fast breaks and sudden, jerking stops.  We are all pin points on maps made by voyagers the size of mountain ranges.  Each of us a slight breeze in search of a congregation of sighs and breathy vows to seek the source of revelation; we are brothers and sisters pretending to be alone because its easier to be by yourself when you feel so completely out of reach.

But we do not struggle because life is hard.  We struggle, we fight and define and bargain away all that we are because time is the only way we have of measuring our success.  We see the distance from where we were to where we are and we feel as though we’ve done something, but it’s not right to fool ourselves this way.

I have no children because I never wanted to explain to someone so important that there was never anything more, there was never going to be a gift, a burden, a promise to make up for all the things we lose throughout our lives.  There was never going to be some great arrival that made what we had to leave behind worth leaving.  There was never going to be an answer to why things are the way they are.

Life has nothing to do with a journey.  That’s just the sort of thing we say to ourselves and to one another to excuse the fact, to muddle the truth; where we are is all that ever really matters.  There is no place better, no height worth reaching for, no low so dire we need struggle to never sink there.  There is just this exact moment.  And you can smile and laugh or you can curl up and cry and it never amounts to anything, it just passes from one moment to the next where again we have the same basic, cosmic, random, bland and yet utterly fantastic choice set before us.  To laugh or to cry, to document or to blindly let slip by the ticking of seconds that matter only in terms of how they add up and never to how we spend them.

Life is not a struggle.  Life is either the obstacle that stands between where we say we’re from and where we hope we’re going or it is the blissful exchange of a thought, an emotion, a decision, a regret, a compulsion or a revelation for some fleeting component that has no value but that for which we assign.  Life is what we make it.

How are you spending your moments?  What is the value of your time?


Turning the Page

Remember the debates from not so long ago?  Remember how Romney tried to challenge everything and demand his way?  The manner in which he treated Jim Lehrer could be accurately described as a “legitimate rape”.  He was rude and bossy and spoke to the President of the United States with such aggression that it left me dazed and afraid of what a Romney Presidency might look like.  Was it just a debate tactic or were we looking directly into the eye of the beast?  Was this the Mitt Romney that heads of other nations would face during times of crisis?

Of course, the Republicans thought it was outstanding.  What I thought showed a sign of emotional weakness and social ineptitude, they applauded as “no nonsense” and “confident”.  Then again, they also saw little to be concerned with over Rush Limbaugh calling Sandra Fluke a “slut”, so maybe a sane person should altogether STOP consulting what the right thinks.

Still, I was trying to suspend my own common sense to accommodate the slightly possible chance that this angry, easily frustrated and emotionally dented human being could be my commander in chief.  Unlike a lot of my friends on the right and even some of those on the left, I do stand behind my elected leader.  I might not stop fighting the good fight, but as an internal function and not out loud for the entire world to feed upon.

Fortunately for me, and for the rest of the world if I could be so frank with my assessment, Mitt Romney did not win the election and I have been able to retain as my president a man who I find not only intelligent and intellectual, but also compassionate, even tempered, fair and respectable.

And after hearing the excuses Mitt Romney has piled on top of his exhausting defeat, blaming the American people for being takers, victims, up-for-sale, gullible and down right stupid, I feel that not only was I right to see the sore loser and poor sport that he demonstrated himself to be during the debates, but I will even go so far as to say that this was the final nail in the political coffin for the Republican party we have been traumatized by since the Tea Baggers first popped up on the map.

The right needs a complete make over.  Perhaps, another batch of lies, conspiracy theories and the magic that is Fox News and the Drudge Report or if they want to get really crazy, they can even try to actually fix what is so desperately broken.  There is nothing wrong with the basic premise of the Republican Party.  Small government with a lot of focus on states rights is a fine alternative to what the left is show casing.  But if the right wing wants to be a party of true political reform it needs to seriously and with sincere intent decide to remove religion from its game plan, work hard to restore individual freedoms and protections and remove the government from our lives socially as much as the current party wants to remove it financially.

Either way, I hope for the sake of this nation that the Republicans find a way to get back on track.  No matter how much I wanted Obama to win this time around, I don’t dare want us to go to a political landscape where there are only donkeys wandering on the plain.

Hand Over the Sandwich

Of course multi-billion dollar business owners are trying to show us the real pain behind Obamacare.  Firing employees and finding new ways to make them suffer simply because we, as a nation, supported the right of every individual to have access to affordable health care is just one of several methods the 1% is using to try and punish us for voting for Obama.  The truth is, however, that this just helps prove our point.  We aren’t a socialist country, we do not want communism in the United States of America.  But when you leave the protection, support and assistance of the young, the poor, the elderly and the disabled to capitalists the way conservatives want we are left with a greedy, selfish, mega rich class, a super poor and/or otherwise incapable of helping themselves class and then the true decision makers trapped in the middle.

Let’s not be fooled.   Not all wealthy people are shrewd and calculating.  Billionaires who dedicate so much of their personal wealth in philanthropic endeavors such as “Giving While Living” are examples of our fellow human beings who recognize the need and amazing reward in helping the less fortunate without the government demanding it.  This is how a perfect society would work.  Everyone does what they are capable of, making a success in all aspects of life, earning a lot of money so that they can realize their dreams and then, without much room for contemplation, helping the people who, for whatever reason, haven’t for themselves been able to find the same motivation, the same talents, the same success.

It doesn’t really matter, to a person with a heart, if the reason why someone needs help is because they are physically, mentally or emotionally handicapped.  It doesn’t change anything when they are faced with a person who needs some kindness and charity because their house blew away in a tornado or because they fell in with the wrong crowd and are now a seemingly hopeless drug addict.  Yes, of course there is room to assign certain levels of responsibility and to take note to the consequences of others actions as well as our own.  But when a starving person comes up to you, if you first find yourself asking why they are hungry and not simply offering them food there is more wrong with you then there is wrong with the needy hand that reaches out in good faith before you.

We need to figure out why so many people have given up.  We need to know why so we can attempt to solve the problem.  If you are homeless because you can’t find work, it’s not enough to just find you a job.  What if you’ve had jobs and you keep getting fired?  What if you don’t know how to read?  What if you have no clean clothes to wear to an interview?  What if you don’t speak English?  What if you have a criminal record?  What if you have a mental illness?  What if you lack formal education?  What if you really are lazy and are used to people always bailing you out?

All of these “what ifs” matter.  They matter because we can’t just give you a sandwich and then leave you to your own devices.  Your own devices got you to this point.  We need to care about you, all of you in the most complete and realistic sense of the word.

First, hand over the sandwich.  You’re not a god and you own no one.  It doesn’t matter how much more money you make or how much less help you ask for.  You are no better than this person before you.  But what you can do, right after extending your hand in friendship, offering some food in charity and graciously accepting thanks for your good deed is find out just what keeps this person, this unique individual, from being able to do enough for his or herself so that they don’t need your help in the near future.

Welfare is a messed up service.  It’s turned into a game that people figure out how to beat.  But don’t ever believe for one minute that someone takes $200 worth of food stamps and less than $200 a month in actual money and feels empowered or successful.  If you are faced with someone, anyone, who would rather collect that little amount of money, while jumping through the hoops their local agency places before them instead of having a job then you are dealing with someone who suffers from something.  It may be an actual illness that a doctor has diagnosed and requests that this person does not enter the work force, it may be because they try and are actually unable to find a job or there is some other problem standing in the way.  It’s not just laziness, while some times I’m sure that plays a part.  But maybe, mixed in with a sense of entitlement there is a person who doesn’t believe he or she would be able to sustain an income.

I promise you, if you could spend 10 minutes reaching out to this person and setting them on a path that would lead to their desire, motivation and new found, self-confidence, you would be giving them the foundation to what would ultimately become their independence.  Don’t speak at them.  Do not be a fool.  People come from a long line of variously difficult and challenging worlds.  It’s not always about self-respect and wanting to have power.  Some people haven’t been given the same tools, the same ideals, and the same sense of possibility and therefore they flounder.  But instead of tearing them down further and making ridiculous comments about drug testing welfare recipients and how some people are takers who feed off of the “real Americans”, maybe it’s time you stepped up and admitted that the only reason why the government is in the position it is in now, where through taxes, entitlement programs and regulations we are legally forcing the mighty to reach into their pockets to help the less fortunate, is because when we do it the “traditional” way, the rich deny being from the same national family as those who need some help and without government intrusion we would basically be handing out death sentences to the weary among us.

Just as it has been stated time and time again that it would be better that 10 guilty men go free so that one innocent man need not be punished unjustly, the same holds true with the charity of our American spirit.  It would be better that we err on the side of compassion and unity.  It would be better that for every handful of decent human beings that simply needs our help we occasionally help someone who is just taking advantage of the system.  Because the minute we let that scam artist define us, we stop being Americans helping Americans and we become an “every man for himself” nation that falls when divided.

I would like to state that I am very much in favor of reformatting the methods in which our state, federal and even local governments assign this aid.  I have seen, up close and personal, a lot of abuse of these programs designed to help.  But that doesn’t mean that in the meantime we abandon one another in our times of need.

Seeing these big companies try to make examples out of their employees, holding their hours, their pay, their self-respect hostage to shoot our president down just as he is finally moving forward with the agenda we voted him into office on in 2008, let alone our continued support just a few days ago is enough to make me want to give up hope that we will ever reach the hearts of these radical, right winged, extremists.  Surrounded by their greed, we will need to stand strong, united against their hatred and lies.

Let’s not forget the least of those among us who need our love, support, acknowledgement and hope.  It is for all of them that we continue to move forward.

Keep Moving Forward

Hello!  Welcome to Civic Resolve!  In the coming weeks there will be a lot of introductory information posted on this site explaining just what I hope we can all get out of it, but for now I just wanted to say hello.  After a great win by our President this past week, we are left with a lot of work to do and it wont be easy.  But I feel that if we combat the lies, misinformation and general crazy of the right we will be able to forge a middle ground were most Americans can feel a part of the conversation.  All of our voices need to be heard.  So stand up with me and let’s keep moving forward!